I have been feeling lost and worn out. Every day feels like a race that I cannot finish. My mind keeps running even when I try to rest. I wake up tired and I go to bed tired. I feel like I carry too much on my shoulders. Work feels heavy. Home feels busy. My thoughts keep piling up and I keep telling myself I will feel better soon but the days pass and nothing changes. I know many people feel this way too and it makes me feel less alone but it still hurts. I want to find something that brings me peace again and helps me feel connected to myself. I want to feel calm in my own body.
I want to start yoga so I plan to buy some yoga equipment for myself. I want a mat and blocks and a strap. I hope this helps me feel more calm and balanced. If anyone has good suggestions I would love to hear them.
My first thought when I read this is if you are suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I struggle in winter with the cold and time change. Yoga really helps with everything. Physically, mentally. I always feel better on days that I practice. Good luck.
You are so right, this feeling and experience is not uncommon in the world we live it. There is an ongoing feeling of needed to get to the next thing and respond to the next email. True pause often takes an effort to unplug and tune out of external world to reconnect to the internal.
I was actually in a studio last night teaching a class and at the end a woman came up and shared that in the beginning her mind was busy and thinking of things to do, or that she had to remember. By the end she felt like the slate had been wiped clear and she could not actually remember what any of those busy thoughts were! She said “oh well, if they are important enough I am sure they will come back”. In that moment she had a reprieve, a break from it all, a moment at least of calm.
We can at least create those moments for ourselves and a yoga practice is a useful tool to do so. Don’t worry so much about the right equipment or mat, just find ways to get to the mat and the rest will follow.
i hope your experience with a few beginner classes gives you the grounding start that so many of us find. just being in your body regularly can change everything for the better. best to you.