From Fear to Fulfillment

Each Fall I come back to the lessons I have learned about letting go, moving on, and release. This is no surprise really, as we are all creatures of this earth governed by her natural rhythms. This week as I looked out my window at a bright yellow tree I was reminded of the saying “fall reminds us of the beauty of letting go.” My mind of course wanted to unpack that for a while, and I began to muse about our collective struggle with attachment, what keeps us holding on so tight? It is beautiful to let go, but letting go of something beautiful is a lesson we are still trying to learn.
Abhinivesha is one of the 5 Kleshas, or causes of suffering explained in the yoga sutras. It is our inherent fear of death, literally translated to clinging to life. The word cling is emotionally charged in itself, and usually used to express a form of desperation or irrational attachment. I think most of us can agree that we don’t want to spend this precious life in a state of constant desperation! While we can acknowledge this on a rational level, we subconsciously do it anyways leading to stress, fear, and controlling in many aspects of our life. How can our yoga practice help us to lose or at least lessen this intense fear of letting go, dying, or more accurately our intense attachment to things as they are?
Many of my yoga classes start in child’s pose, and end in Savasana or corpse pose (note many of my online classes do not, as it is difficult to talk into a mic while in child’s pose without a lot of technical issues!). My most influential teachers taught classes in this way which is why I initially started to do the same. After years of study, I came to understand the reason for this, our asana practice is an opportunity to practice life itself. The reason our “outside” life tends to transform after years of a consistent yoga practice is directly related. With each practice we have the opportunity to shift towards the person our soul is yearning to be, kind of like a quiet and focused simulation. The brain itself is rewired by this over time, shifting the way we relate and react to specific stimuli in our practice, our life, and our relationships. This subtle way of shifting happens when we practice savasana too, intentionally pausing, resting, and letting go. This is the key to softening our desperate cling, or grip on life, to practice the art of letting go one savasana at a time.

My intention here is not just to help you learn how to pass on with grace and ease, though that may be a wonderful way to eventually leave this world. My intention in this conversation is to help you loosen the grip and fear so that you are no longer paralyzed by it, so you can learn how to truly live. Each of us at some point in our life confronted the realization that WE would someday die, at least in a mortal way. For a small percentage, the lucky ones, this shift of perspective activates an eagerness to live life fully, to be present and consider each moment a special gift that is no way guaranteed. For many of us, we start to recoil a bit from living, we construct a buffer of sorts that we think in some way may save us from pain. Our practice teaches us time and again is that quantity is not nearly as important as quality. Holding back for a day, week, month, year, or decade, is stealing from ourselves.

If we think of the practice as a practice round for what we live, we can see that there are constant opportunities to help us with this idea. Each time we meet those moments of challenge, resistance, or boredom we have an opportunity to be present, process, pause, respond, and release. Some days we forgo those opportunities and meet the challenging moment with aggression, aversion, distraction, blame, or denial. The same opportunities are present in the moments we love and want to linger in forever, yet the same clinging or attachment is at play here. We must learn to meet even the sweetest moments with presence, and eventual harmonious release.

As we take this off the mat, we invite ourselves to loosen our grip on the way we think our life should look, the things we think we need to have, the timeframe in which we need to have them. We learn to love openly so we don’t allow regret to take up room in our mind or our heart, we give with less expectation on outcome. We love knowing that the object of our love may not always be around and that inspires us to love more and control less. Ultimately these principles are reflected inwardly, we learn to love our own mortal body and life, more openly with less judgment. Ultimately there is a shift in how we perceive impermanence; rather than fearing impermanence, we are inspired by it.

Some things to ponder this month: Where do you cling in your own life? To an object or idea? What is the fear behind that grip? What could you do or say today to ease some of that fear? What are you putting off because you think you have time later to deal with it? What space and energy might you free by dealing with it now? If you were to leave this life tomorrow, what would you regret the most?


You have such an amazing way with words which leaves me a little speechless. I am always in a state of flux, letting go of things that no longer serve me but trying to hold on tightly to things that do.
The line where you say, “Holding back for a day, week, month, year or decade, is stealing from ourselves.” It’s so true.
I don’t fear dying, but wasting a moment of precious time on this beautiful planet, in our amazing body and all the experiences to be had is not an option for me.
I heard someone say, “Don’t die with your music still inside you.”


Insightful and thought provoking. When we identify areas that we are clinging too in our lives, we identify sources of stress and anxiety. I am currently in the process of selling my fathers house - the one he lived in for 40 years. I woke up this morning and understood that doing so was troubling because it felt like cutting off my roots of my existence. Identifying the feeling and recognizing the importance that letting go does not change my association with my Dad or where he lived is cleansing. It does not diminish my relationship and provides an avenue to express our shared humanity. Thank you for Fiji for expressing something with which we all struggle and identifying how our regular practice provides a pathway to clarity.

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Fiji - thank you so much for this post. I have recently been diving deeper into the full spectrum of yoga. This led me to start reading The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali by Sri Swami Satchidananda, M.A. Jayashree, et al. It’s my first introduction to the Yoga Sutras and the concept of attachment was especially thought provoking. Jealousy, anger, disappointment - all emotions rooted in attachment. All very painful emotions to encounter. The journey of moving beyond the ego’s need to be right…

I have been contemplating the sutras deeply and have so many questions. Other books I’ve read that talk about the principles of yoga without diving too deep into the science advise finding yoga teachers who will provide guidance on the journey. Related to attachment - it puzzles me how the sutras advise to release ourselves of expectation and attachment, but if we don’t have these expectations and become dispassionate about challenges, then how do we best serve others? It’s not a concept I disagree with, I simply think I have much to learn.

The concept of preparing the pureness of your mind for deeper contemplation related to the yoga of knowledge is of particular interest. I’m just not sure where to start in my search for this type of teacher and am wondering if you or others (instructors or members) know of a place to seek one out. I’ve looked through some of the programs offered here and have noticed the emphasis/focus on asana and meditation. I’m also a new member and perhaps have not found all there is to find on the site yet. Any guidance from you or others would be greatly appreciated.

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I am so delighted to hear that you have taken the first steps into this deep dive. This is really where we learn about yoga, and of course all the pardoxes that arise. I am currently working on a program for doyogawithme about the sutras, It will be out late spring. I also have a group forming for a year long dive into yoga called the yoga year. If you are interested in that feel free to reach out to me,

I also highly reccomend the book How Yoga Works, and Spiritual Enlightenment is the damndest thing